miyumicat

So, I started school back at the beginning of september, and wow I still can't believe I'm a senior. I keep getting blindsided with it by little things like the title on homework including "12" in the class title and my class being called together for pep rallies. I just can't get my head around it.

When I'm not crippled by an existential crisis, I'm dealing with classes. They're not that bad, thank the gods. 

The only really stressful class is AP english, understandably. Most of the course work involves reading classics and analyzing them or comparing them to other classics. On days that fate decides to hate me especially, we analyze poems. *shudder*

But my other classes (global citizenship, health, architectural drawing 2) are all light work. Ive successfully established dominance over the architectural drawing 1 kids and wow i feel like a real adult.

I started drivers training with our very versatile physical trainer/ driving trainer/ mayor to learn to operate that huge death trap. I am very inexperienced and considering my skill level i am actually not that bad and have driven in traffic and not killed anyone. I have a car and its really cute but really old and my dad and brother have "pimped my ride" and i will soon be able to cruise in style. v excited for that.

ALSO aside from educational sadness, I've finally started to dye my hair an ombre blue. (its only been like all summer) so hopefully that will be done soon.

I've also started journaling. Which at first i just bought this little art sketchbook but i didnt really know what to do with it. However, on tumblr, i found a very large, very inspiring art journaling community and wow i just have so many ideas that i have to write them down. 

So, even though I'm not posting a lot of art on here, I'm still creating. Which actually I have to upload a thing. 

Getting back to senior year, the long and mentally taxing process of applying to colleges and for scholarships has begun.

I have (not fully but almost) applied to two schools (!!) _{plz clap for me this is an accomplishment}


but yeah, still have to get transcripts and whatnot, and also scholarship essays kill me

I just want to get past this semester and then everything will be okay because english will be over 


oh and I might be going to lantern fest which is like the scene in Tangled when they let them into the sky. One of my friends only got her mother to agree to it by allowing her to stay with us the whole time, so it will have to stay PG sadly. 

Honestly besides the cool idea of actually letting a lantern go, it's supposed to represent your dreams coming true or you letting go of past regret so I'll prob go all in emotionally and tear up after writing a heartfelt list of my demons down on the paper before i see it off to the sky.

IN ADDitIon: fallllll is heeerre. im ready for the fall aesthetic to overcome everything. (its around this time of year that i always get the urge to buy a mustard cardigan with matching boot socks.) I can finally drink a cup of tea without sweating my face off 

but yeah, thanks for caring. Off i go to do chores >->

i just have to hang in there for 23 more school days and then I'm free


I figured I havent submitted anything in a while so it would be appropriate.

Currently i have really demanding classes and my psychological stability is wearing thin. Between calculus which is the hardest math class I've had so far, and AP english which is enough stress to equate all of my classes last semester, my stress level is high and the amount of free time i have is low. actually today i have to type the whole rough draft of my huge research paper project. and study 4 sections of notecards for a large test I have tomorrow. And hey its mothers day. I basically just keep holding on to the fact that thanks to state tests, I won't have to do gym for 3 of the 5 days this week and a couple next week. 

Honestly I don't know how I'm not having a mental breakdown, like I feel stressed but I'm not worrying as much as I used to about things like this and I'm actually getting the work done rather than worrying myself sick and then finishing it in a day. (surprisingly that system works pretty well but not for my mental health)

And also, I'm in the process of getting a job at the local playhouse, painting sets for the shows. It's technically an internship but it's paid so whatevs. And it'll be my first real job--I don't really count the volunteering I do at the local PetSmart bc it's unorganized and there's no money involved--so I'm looking forward to that. 

I'm also in the process of trying to get my drivers permit. I studied and read the book and everything, I'm just waiting on my birth certificate to get back from the passport place so I'll have valid forms of ID. 

but yeah I feel like I'm actually getting things done and not slacking off. 

i even read more, until I got reading assignments for english that is, and started drawing more.

For a couple months my laptop wasn't in use because of a malfunctioning WiFi card, which took some time to find and order, but my brothers computer knowledgeable friend was able to get it working again, and wow did i miss having a computer that's not in my parents room.

So ever since i got it back I've been using SAI more since i actually have the license for it. 
but yeah, just a little update on how I've been doing. 

to all of you who still have a lot of school days left, hang in there, good luck on finals, and enjoy the nice weather (unless you're in the southern hemisphere i guess)

so, seeing as im sixteen and christmas doesnt have that same effect of wonder, excitement and the feeling that it lasts forever, i'm trying my hardest to get into the christmas spirit. 

I'll be damned if i cant feel like a little kid again, and wonder what my presents are and have the feeling of mystery, and seeing all my family in one place and playing with my cousins.


it's been extremely hard to accomplish this specific goal since my cousins and i are older, and obviously don't believe in santa, and we don't play with toys anymore so its usually just giftcards (wheres the fun in that) 

and more of my family doesnt show up to christmas parties or things like that. Last night my grandmother had her tree decorating party and instead of the usually crowded, family and laughter and joy filled house that it used to be, there were only about 15 of us, and my brother and i were the only kids there. and we also have a new cat that is the definition of trouble so instead of having the christmas tree in the living room, making it smell and light up the house, it had to go in the sunroom where he can't eat it -.- 

and on top of all that, I've had a cold for the past couple of days. all i want is for it to go away before christmas.

I mean, this year i tried asking for specific things instead of just money in hopes of actually being excited on christmas day. And i made sure we all were happy while getting and decorating our tree. I put christmas music on when my family's home, i'm trying to get everyone stuff they actually want but don't necessarily know what it is.

and i found out we lost our favorite CD with music for christmas so i tried so hard to find the track listing somewhere so i could find the songs, and after two days of it i did and so heres a playlist with some rock n roll christmas songs, a little different from the traditional ones and actually still bearable 

www.youtube.com/playlist?list=…

but yeah, i just really like christmas time and the feeling of it all. 

i hope  that if you, like me, enjoy christmas but are experiencing the downs of growing up and just can't get into that jolly mood, you are able to still find happiness and enjoy your break from school and work and have fun with your family

so currently I'm in florida with Jindovi and its been fun. we visited Clearwater Marine Aquarium (which is the one from Dolphin Tale), both Universal parks, and Magic Kingdom. 

it's been so much walking i think my legs are dead. 

I did get to buy things though. We went to the Harry Potter parks (obviously) and after getting sorted into Hufflepuff on Pottermore, i bought a hufflepuff themed sweat jacket and pillow, and i also got a wand. Pretty cool.

tomorrow we're going to the oldest city in the nation- St. Augustine. Then heading home. I got to miss this whole week from school and it's been pretty great, i mean i still got the work but i didnt have to wake up early or worry about dresscode so that was nice. 

so christmas is coming up and now begins my mad dash to think up and buy/make gifts for all my friends and family. 

I just really like giving people things. Its great to make someone legitimately happy and know that theyre glad for your gift.

I'm honestly not expecting anything big since my parents bought me a new laptop in i think November as an early christmas present. Its great. with every new piece of technology comes a few problems, in this ones case, it shuts down randomly and several times in a row, but other than that its great. Im able to have actual games and its fast. so much faster than my other one. Plus this ones an actual laptop, my other one was a small notebook type thing that wasnt really practical for the workload that i used it for. 

but this ones nice. 

so ill try to upload, i know for sure school projects are gonna be coming, but yeah if i dont see you guys merry christmas, and if you celebrate something else, happy holidays.

~Miyumi